Kids Say The Darnest Thing

It started with me taking my almost-three-year-old son to the ENT (Otologist... an ear doctor) on Friday. I was worried that there was an infection or some sort that was making his ears itchy and rather smelly. So away we went to see this Doctor in Ciranjang hospital that specializes in Ear Nose and Throat (ENT) To my surprise, Logan was behaving very well. He didn't scream or cry at all. He just sat there on my lap and waited patiently for the Doctor to finish his examination. I was very relieved to know that there was no infection, but just some buildups that made his ear cannals itchy and rather smelly. But we had to go back on the following Monday for cleaning. Meanwhile, I had to put some ear drops 3 times a day to soften the ear wax.

Monday came, and I took Logan to the hospital again for cleaning. Since I was afraid that he might be scared of the cleaning process, I told him many times that the Doctor was going to clean his ears. But I guess I didn't give him a more thorough explanation. So when the Doctor stuck his tools inside Logan's ears to suck out the wax, Logan went crazy. He was so angry, he kept yelling "Go away! Go away from me!" on top of his lungs. I tried to calm him down, and explained what was going to happen. But I guess it was too late. In the end, we had to secure him by holding him tightly so the Doctor can do his thing. Thankfully, the process only took less than a minute, and everything went ok. The next 15-20 minutes was rather hurtful for me. I'd never seen Logan angry like that before. Although he was not hurt physically (the process didn't hurt at all), I knew he was rather shaken by the whole thing. My reaction was to calm him down, and explained that we had to do that for his own good. I even apologized to him for not explaining the process thoroughly. After he calmed down, everything was ok. Or so I thought...

The following day was rather busy for me. I took Logan to his 2nd week of school, and to my surprise, he cried when he knew I wasn't around, whilst on his 1st he did not. I told my hubby what happened at school when he got home from the office. And after hearing me out, he then told me that Logan was still mad at me that evening even though I took him to the Doctor in the morning. It was when my hubby bathed Logan, he asked Logan if he was still angry at me, and he said yes. :(

I couldn't really digest what my hubby told me cuz I was on my way to choir practice. But on the way home, I kept thinking and thinking about it. And I just realized that even though my son is just almost 3 years old, he already has the ability to feel. I mean I knew he has feelings and all that, but I just never took it to my account that he could feel anger... or maybe disappointment ... or betrayal... that long. I always thought that he was just a small kid... a baby, rather. But since that day, I realized that my baby... is growing up...